A psychic once told me that I was born under lucky stars. I would have to say that I agree. Not that my life has been easy, nor have I had everything handed to me, but I do believe I am lucky. I have experienced many things in this life, good and bad, and all of these experiences have shaped me into who I am today and I am okay with that.
A child of the late 60’s, 70’s, & 80’s. No. I wasn’t a hippie. I was much too young for that, but I swear some of the outfits my mom had me wearing say otherwise.
Growing up I was a sensitive child. I felt different from others. I recall thinking my family must all be aliens, because I didn’t feel like I fit in. How could they possibly be normal? Truth is, it was me that wasn’t normal, but I didn’t discover that way back when.
I wanted so badly to fit in with everyone at school. I wanted everyone to like me. I tried to be a chameleon to fit in, act in a manner that pleased people. But that never really worked, because eventually the real you wants to come out and you decide acting like you are something you are not isn’t being your authentic self.
I was a dancer for many years, because that is what my mom wanted. I played softball year after year because it pleased my parents. But what did I want? Well of course I thought I wanted to be a professional dancer and move to New York to become a Rockette! Turns out that isn’t really what I wanted and then I was left not really knowing what I did want because I was always told what I wanted.
My family is not religious, as a matter of fact, I don’t even think my mom believes in God. I would get invited to go to church with the neighbors, and I would go. I enjoyed Sunday school. However, when I decided I needed to read the bible so that I could better understand what religion was, I had more questions afterwards than before. I was confused and nothing made sense to me.
I didn’t go to college, because I didn’t know what I wanted to do. So instead I got a job. I got married at 20. Two kids and 12 years later I got my first computer. I then found Witchcraft. It was like I had finally found “home”, where I belonged, what felt so familiar. In 2000 I started teaching Witchcraft online, on a website I created myself. Then I started a Yahoo group to meet like-minded friends. I ended up leaving my first husband that year and he ended up using Witchcraft against me to try and take the kids away from me. It was a crazy time for me to say the least. My ex husband continued to harass me for the next 5 years. Why did I allow this to happen you ask? Because I had never learned to claim my personal power….heck I didn’t even know what personal power was.
Two years went by. During that time I tried my hand at being a phone psychic. It never felt right to me and there really wasn’t any money to be had doing it.
In 2002 I met my current husband and we married in 2005. During this time period I suffered depression and anxiety like I had never experienced in my life. It was extreme and I felt out of control. I searched online and diagnosed myself with borderline personality disorder, even though my therapist thought I was bipolar. The truth is I was neither. But I wouldn’t learn the truth until much later.
With my chronic depression I had put my spiritual journey on hold. I wasn’t reading my tarot, I wasn’t teaching, and I wasn’t learning either. I ended up doing whatever I could to escape my own reality. And what happens when you try and escape your own reality? You no longer move forward. You become blocked and frozen in time.
Hard times hit us in 2013 and we struggled to make ends meet. Even then I did not know how to get out of the struggle, and instead of living everyday in stress, I sank even further into fantasyland. Ten months later we hit rock bottom with no income, no place to live, and no plans in place.
I ended up getting very physically ill from all the stress. It was at that point that my survival self kicked in. Was I going to just accept my fate as it was? Hell no!
I began helping myself and when I decided to take these steps is when God, the Angels and Spirit stepped in to help. My intuition intensified. I was receiving signs from Spirit like never before. I was guided to Doreen Virtue. Changed my life! I mean I knew of her from her Oracle decks, but I had never followed her or knew anything about her…and I tell you, she changed my life!
I learned that I am an Empath. An Empath is someone who is capable of feeling the emotions of others, someone who takes on others energies as their own. Once I learned to shield myself of others energies, and not take them on as my own, I was able to differentiate my feelings from someone else’s. My mood swings stopped, my energy was higher, my headaches decreased, and I felt empowered. With this new knowledge, I no longer suffered from depression.
Another angel, an earth angel , guided me to start doing psychic readings online. I wasn’t sure about it, but what did I have to lose? To my surprise, I started bringing in a consistent income that helped us out tremendously!
Each and every day I grew more and more spiritual and more and more intuitive. I had found my personal power and I had re-discovered my spirituality in a whole new light. I was beginning to move forward once again, and I saw the light at the end of the tunnel.
I began to let walls down that I had thought were permanent. I opened myself up to new ideas and possibilities.
Another friend offered their time-line therapy services to help me. I began to see that helping myself, allowed God to open doors for me that were once closed. My path was illuminating right before my eyes. It was like everything that had been bottled up, blocked, closed off and forgotten…came back to me within an instant….times 100!
Within a short period of time, I began manifesting everything we needed and more!
It’s been another 2 years since then and I have to tell you that it’s been a journey that I would do all over again if I had to. And the reason is because it’s made me who I am right now. And I like who I am. I have embraced my life, and my gifts. And I have so much gratitude and love for God, my angels, my spirit guides, and my family and friends!
Life is what you make it!
You have the power to make it magickal! ✨✨✨
I’m 49 years old and I feel like I’m starting a new journey down a path I’ve been waiting a very long time to find.
To new beginnings! ⭐
Shine on Star Souls!!! Your future is so bright you better go put your shades on.
2017 bring it on!
Brightest of Blessings,